I am not alright. I haven't been for a while now. Evidently a demon inside me is holding me back from many things.
For a long time the real me has been hidden. The reason is simple. My first relationship was the result of a 2 year chase. I craved this girl for two whole years and I was too scared to say or do anything, tell her how I truly felt and I lost her. It was a common trend in my life: holding back, loss and then regret. I pushed the wall down recently and got the exact same outcome. I've listened to the lies those around her tell about me. I don't understand why they would.
A hurtful person from my past creating stories because she didn't get me all to her self. A spiteful creature she manifested so many false identities of mine and spread the rumors successfully to the point where I don't even know why anyone would even believe all that of me. I guess the real people will find the real me and those that believe the lies deserve to, as they themselves will be living a lie and surrounded by damaged souls creating stories.