Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Tonight i feel like more..



Something personal...while i put together the next entry...
Something that is on my mind.


I had a lot to say.
All i did was thinking, on my time away
I missed you,and things werent the same.
I missed the way you said my name.
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
So i traced each step back to the first night.
One thing i know is where i am coming from,
My stubourness vanished in journey,
A destiny causing grief more than the entity.

I tasted my sweet bitter tears.
My thoughts deafened me all of me in everyway,
It is no longer about me,
I have rested the game i used to play.
Angels awoke me and caused me to fall.
I fell hard.
I cannot let this choice pass me by,
I must take hold of it.

This time I think, I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
I cannot feel another night.
I cant feel.

What we did we cannot take back,
I cannot learn to give you away.
I fell in the dirt,
Im back up to see another day.

I know how you kiss, I know all your every sound,
I look around as i feel im saving no one,
Im given the chance by how you make my world go round

Every single day, I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
I can't feel until I make it right.

I lost myself,
I was stripped of my glory.
I know i was blind.
I know i am sorry.

Im back to where you left me.


( Written March 25th, 2009 on a yellow piece of cardboard, at Judge Heath Lane's Gregg Bakery steps, Waiting for the U4 Bus to Uxbridge, London. It was -5c and even my warm tears were cold, i was listening to a BOT song so i borrowed some of the words from that song. )